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i actually feel sad n dissapointed abt our relationship..
although tis already more den half a yr..
yea...i feel sad
when i heard songs tat i've hv listen to during ns period,my heart drops...
u say u like tiada lagi tat time
wat a sad song
until now
i heard tis song..sad nia..
ya..tiada lagi yg kuharapkan n impikan
v shuldn't hv started
cuz when v finally gt together,i dun reli feel happy at tat moment
until now,i'm nt sure whether v've been together..do v,huh?
when laz time ppl ask me do u hv a guy?i do not know how to answer bcoz i duno ur answer.
i felt damn stpd when i thought back my ns moment
evry saturday nite,although tired,i'll wait for d msg.5beds distance frm my bed
charging my phone cuz scared of low batt n couldnt msg him.doh~
evrytime less den 5msg,asked me''tired?''
i say no
but u say yes
aahh..den gd nite..
wtf
u shit
c wat i get!

lzy
he will accompany me although it's late nite
he's d 1 i tell him my probs..
he's good!=)
real good...

bak frm ns
gathered
started
bak home
v din improved much
i noe tat
v hardly hv any conversations
u owayz ask d same thing
wat r u doing..
1st few days
gd morning msg
later
no more
nt even a CALL
for 1 whole month
can u guys blif this?!
if i get a call frm him,
yea
less den 5mins
duhh..
i owayz dun expect anything frm him..
aiyoooo
can u accept tat ur boy dun msg u for 1 whole day?
nt even a call...
later evry nite
i'll get msg-ed asking wat am i doing
same ques
again n again
2nd msg-nt tired meh?
3rd msg-i'm tired la..oklaa..gd nite la..
like tat nia!!!
haih...big dissapoinment la..if for u ,u can stand tis a?
1 whole day for oni abt 3msgs..everyday~

i'm sick of it until 1 day i chat wif hsien
i tell her evrything
my feelings....evrything
den she confirmed me tat i dun like him la dol~
yea...i noe tat la...until when i talk to her
i admit it la..
break up wif msg jugak
tgk..wtf kan~
sumore say
wait
dinner 1st
go eat ur shit la...nw is big mttr between u n me a.!
eat!
when telling him tis
i was actually msg-ing wif hsien oso
she's teaching me,telling me wat to do
i reli muz thx her d la...luv ya lotsss!!!!!!
she was like so so angry tat time..hah..
funny
bak to topic..
break oni wanna meet a....whole month din meet u din say anything
nvrmind laa...
i'm reli dissapointed ad wan lo..
finally break la...
later saw ur msn those.fs those
gt a gal's name huh
i actually dun fucking care
but i was thinking
when v r STILL 2gether
i'm nt on ur msn or fs neither
words dol..noe wat..?!
u tell chiam u k for me those rite..
blaa...
she actually wan to let me c those lo..
but i din


no mttr how sad it was,i still think of it sumtimes
human nature ma
..wat a failure huh..-.-
at laz,i wrote tis out...aaahhh....wat a relief...XD