updated on 3/5

long time din write blog ad larrrr...

hmm..i'm getting more lazy to even sign in my blog...

i dun even get into my blog whenever i on9!xD

so fyi,i'm still working...

although sumtimes is quite boring working~(cuz gt no customers~)

but at least thr's sth to do bttr den staying at home sitting infront of d laptop.

after working for tis job,i oni noe tat sales assistance its nt an easy job!

last time,i kinda look down on tis kinda job cuz when i c teenage wif my age working of tis kinda jobs,i assume they're naughty,bad boys n girls,nt good in studies...

so after working for tis job,i oni found out tat its actually a quite good job cuz u can actually learn sth in tis job.d working life,how to survive when ppl talk bad abt u etc etc...hmm...

working is reli vry different frm studying.in schools,evry1 around u comes frm a almost same family background,having d same status like ur ownself.

but when u work,u c many kinds of ppl.they came frm different family backgrounds,they r so different frm wat urself r.

in schools,u gt almost same age frens but in working,u gt frens which is vry much older den u.sumore,in working,when tat ppl is evil,they reli did,but in schools,although tat ppl is evil,u dun hv to worry much cuz they r still teenage n wont do much harm to u!!xD

tis working life makes me think of my ns life again.its already 3months since i've been working n always,when i'm walking to the toilet..xD..i'll tell myself tat i'll surely miss tis working life after i stop working thr.i'll miss evrything since i'm already used it.

even now,when i'm having my off day more den 2days,i'll miss going to work!hah!mayb cuz its too boring at home.already 2 weeks i din hang out on my monday off day!!

but working makes me giving up many things..
i gave up of going to band practices,so gt no concerts i can join..
i've nt been playing flute for a damn long time tat i've been missing it so so much..
i've been thinking tat i'm sure i gt no chance to play in the band anymore since even after stop working,i've to continue my studies.
if i reli gt myself into sabah uni,means i reli gt no chance to play in d band anymore lo...
haih...its a dissapointment for me larr..
i used to tell sum1 my thoughts but now..i keep mostly evrything to myself..
i envy those ppl who still joining d band.they gt so many chances to get into band stuffs but nt me.


working life of course included of other things...
many things happened n i still felt so sry for tat person.
when i saw tat person,i'll tot bak how bad am i to hurt a human.
how can i did tat.
saw tat person walking across d street once when i was waiting for d bus to go bak home,i feel like crying...
later saw tat person in tat store looking out,tat expression on tat face was like so dissapointed to me..i still felt sry.
i'm so sry tat i wanna tell somebody but who can understands my feelings leh...haih...


so for now,wat am i thinking leh...wat r u thinking leh...arghh..so shit..sumtimesur words r like cant be trusted to me.
u seems to be good but sumtimes u r not...hmm...its like after tat thing,v even talk less n u seems nt to be so cared like u did.
small lil' things can always makes me think too much.
u r still so not understands me like i do not understands u too.
i dont know much abt u...
y cant u be like the one i used to talk to.
i think u r still d one who un me d most gua...
telling u stuffs can makes me feel bttr..
wat i think is d same like wat u did leh!
i din mean anything but i'm glad tat thr's still sum1 who un n gt same opinion like me.

arghhh.....
uhhh....
fuhh...